longggggg January

this January is too long to survive. i get tired, and the eyes too. First world problem for a student like me is of course money. guys, in this Metropolitan city, how can u survive without money? how? yes, supposedly we, the pre-service of government, will be given an allowance but yet. we get nothing. till the end of January, no money in. Memang tak guna nak salahkan sesiapa, nak menuding jari ke hape hape ke, dah tak payah sebabnya janji tinggal janji. Kalau pihak pentadbiran pun buat silap, what else kitorang yang tengah study ni? i dont want to raise any issues but just for self reflection and personal thought lah kan, 'korang' kemain lagi nak students achieved your target sampai sanggup buang student dari maktab, konon nya taknak "lembu asuk maktab, keluar jadi cikgu jugak". nak buat ala ala oxford gitu lah kann. But then, tengok lah kerja 'korang' sendiri macam mana. kalau kualiti kerja 'korang' dah macam tu, then why 'korang' put a higher expectations on us? i just think that it is not fair for you guys lewatkan bagi allowance sebab itu hak kami, and the whole bulan 1 buat key-in nama, then cakap before February the allowance will be in. tp bila dah ada masalah macam ni, korang 'mintak' masa seminggu untuk key-in balik. Oh hebat! kerja yang korang buat sebulan boleh dibuat balik dalam masa seminggu? a big applause to 'korang'.

 

if this is what u meant by your so-called oxford management or administration or whatever lah kan, i think 'korang' should taking back your words and improve yourself first. then baru lah boleh jadi our role model.

okay, goodbyeee. i just pointed out my thought. if you get a butthurt, go back off. 

Hello and hyeee. just look at his smile, and his eyes is smiling too. he is cute. all babies are cute. they smell like a heaven. after the medical checked up i had yesterday, the doctor insisted me to go for a specialist. well it just to confirm what is going on in my womb. it does sound serious, but i bet there's nothing inside. i am totally fine, hope so. i called mum and told her that the doctor suggested me to go for the specialist, and this coming holiday im going to meet the specialist. honestly, i start to worry, start to think all the nonsense and my mind is mess up. Im hoping too much, as there nothing wrong with my womb. i wanna have baby, or babiessss :( tapi itu semua takdir ALLAh kan. nak tak nak kena redha. so now, i need time to get my mind ready. In shaa Allah, i am okay. but just to confirm that i am totally fine, scanning must be done as soon as possible. if not, ive been distracted by those thing yang actually tak ada apapa pun. just worried too much. so, guys! please pray for me. Semoga Allah sentiasa beri kesihatan yang baik kat saya. AMIN.

anyonyonyooo look at her. In shaa Allah, my future daughter will be like this. I pray my very hard for this 'ANUGERAH'

well, congratulations JOZAN. you two deserve the awards and money of course. its paid off. okay lepas ni dah tak ada dah duduk lepak kedai malam Jumaat sampai 12malam. lepas ni, tak ada dah nak keluar rumah lagi dah. weekend duduk kat rumah pastu watching movies alone on laptop. goshh what a life. monday to friday, classes. weekend at home. staying at home alone kat KL tak sama rasa being alone home kat sarawak. Bigggg different there, kat rumah lagi syok. Ya Allah, what would my life would be. This is the reason why i involve myself with any activities, even if i dont like it. i have to, sebab bila banyak tanggungjawab and kerja, tak ada la i rasa lifeless kat KL ni. im suffered for two years and i think, thats it, enough! tapi tu laa, makin banyak kerja makin banyak kita kena gerak and pathetically i have no transportation. why on earth i was placed here? why? kalau kat sarawak, i will definitely have my own car. time to time my life getting sucks, GOD! 

Actually, nak pertikaikan benda ni tak ada guna dah. things wont change and i have to suffer here for about 3years more, seriously darn it all! dari dulu sampai sekarang i mempertikaikan the same things. see, how stupid i was. move your ass out effa and survive. 

after grades, i wanna stay at sarawak ONLY. get married and staying there. FULLSTOP. this place is seriously not meant to me, i dont belong to this planet. like yekk, i dont like KL nowadays. 

-Rindu Srimas, ececehhh

ALHAMDULILLAH, praised to ALLAH. finally srimas sudah ada air. yeayy! honestly, rindu srimas and rindu orang2 kat area srimas. haa yang kat blok 20 sri melaka tu, lagi lah rinduuuuu. hopefully lepas ni dah xde dah masalah air. well, sekarang ni kl is no longer a safe place to stay or to study. politician issues tak pernah nak settle as everyone thinks that the have right on saying their thoughts. true, but then there is many good wayssssssss. just look at sarawak, not really into this politic and see, our basic needs never be disturbed. maybe ada inner problem kat sarawak but then it never affected the society. nahh, korang tengoklaa. negeri yang duduk dalam hutan ni jugak yang aman tau. korang bajet urban sangat, tapi perpaduan takdak. malu wei.. mcm takde tamadun dah..


wuuuu gila lah effa. for the first time im saying out this thought. hehee well masing2 ada pandangan masing2 kannn? nothing much to say. im just happy that im back here, in Srimas Condominium.
bubbyee~

1st entry for 2013

i guess this is the first entry for 2013, ahaaa second week of Jan baru nak update blog. well, it is still not too late for me to wish y'all HAPPY NEW YEAR YAW! the beginning of 2013 was not started in a good luck. why? because of the water crisis yang entah kenapa tetiba takdak air pulak. at first, i was really upset! gosh, this is kay ell yaw. why must be a crisis? water crisis? i think, this should not be happened. the irony is other state in Malaysia like kelantan, terengganu and pahang is having flood, but here in kl, no water. so pfftt~

but then, it was not a big deal though, coz during weekdays im staying with my friend's house (Fetty's family) at Putrajaya. so terpaksa la ulang alik everyday. penat tapi lagi penat angkat air kot~ =.='

oh yes~ last week, on Friday was our I year 9 month anniversary. wuhuuuu! tak boleh percaya that ive been in relationship with someone for almost two years. such a big victory for me. ALHAMDULILLAH. and of coz im hoping that our relationship will ever lasting, In Shaa Allah. semoga anda semakin tabah menjaga perangai tak menyenonoh anak pakcik yusuf ini ye. 

So, azam tahun 2013 ialah:

* improve myself in English Studies, well better in speaking the language and also writing!

* be a good daughter to mom and dad. i love them.

* slowly improve my appearance, lalalalaa no further explanation. just wait & see!

* be a good wife, eh? HAHA in preparing myself to be a good wife for him. In Shaa Allah

* kurus. ok fullstop.

baiklah, setakat itulah entry ku pada kali ini. hope you guys set your aims too, for this 2013! In Shaa Allah.

that special date

Assalammualaikum and hye :)

Alhamdulillah, today is my fifth day at Sarawak. yeayy! awal2 cuti sememangyaa bosan tak tahu nak buat apa. tapi i enjoy my life much. laying on bed, on ze sofa, on the floor. ohh heaven! even orang tanye, duduk rumah buat ape je? x bosan ke? my answer would be, nope. i enjoy my life this way. maybe sebab dah lama duduk KL and terpaksa buat semua benda seorang diri, then bila sampai rumah, semua benda ada orang buat. hehe i mean, memasaklahh. then rumah pun sentiasa bersih & kemas. rutin harian pepagi cuci muka sidai baju then melepak tgk tv or online. best kann?

oh yaa! about the title, that special date 10 November 2012 (10/11/12) cool huh? yeap, for me yeap yeap yeaappp! that was the day i left KL for my semester break. i dont know how to tell, how to create the situation, but what i know is that day is totally a special day for us. i will never forget that. indeed, it was not good as what he had planned, but it was the most sweet memory.

i know, i should be glad for having him in my life. i guarantee, there is no other men would do anything for me except for my ayah lah kannn? awhh he is so sweet. thanks for that little surprise love :)

Happy Holidaaayyy!

bagi nasihat kat orang sangatlah senang, tapi pernah tak terfikir apa yang orang tu lalui? pernah tak? setiap perkara yang terjadik ada hikmah, yes i know that. this lately saya just rasa penat. nak katakan pressure takde la pressure mana pun. just tertekan sikit lahh. dengan penyakit yang makin hari makin terok, Ya Allah.. 

malas nak fikir sangat pasal tu and of course benda tu sedikit sebanyak affect concentration kita time belajar. dah la sem ni boleh tahan gila, 4papers straight in 3 days. hebat tak hebat?? thats us, Teslian je mampu go through semua ni. ehekk!

last paper this coming Sunday, then im stranded kat kl until next saturday. seminggu duduk kl tak buat apa apa. i miss home. im just too tired being strong here. rasa nak rehat.. satu satu benda sedih tjadik. slow slow datang. it hurts much.. 

merepek yang bukan bukan tak masuk akal. oh im wasting my time.. bubbye