Second Day

Assalamualaikum semuaa..
Hari ini hari selasa dan hari hujan. sangat sejuukkk hokey!
Tema baju hari ni is BLACK PINK. likelikelike~
there is another 3 days to go mahu balik sarawak tanah tercintaa. and as usual, i am out of mood dah nak g lecture. HAHA! mood saya di rumah sudah. mahu makan manyak manyak sampai munceitt.. ahh, lantak la nak gumuukk ke apa kan? x baik tolak rezeki kan kan kan?? masa ni lah kita nak menghargai dan merasa masakan mama kita. nanti kalau mama dah sampai ajal, sampai airmata darah sekalipun x kan dapat merasa masakan mama. so, x yah la nak diet diet sangat. balik raya baru bole diet (i guess) x kisah la kena polish kuku and urut belakang selama seminggu. HAHA. janji dapat makan masakan mama. masakan orang sarawak. :)

im in pink..

captured!

boohhhh!

ok. peace yg buruukkk..

bajets

haa.. ni lah muka yang minta seppak tuu

my teeth look funneeyyy..

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First day

Assalamualaikum everyone. 
hari ni hari pertama saya pergi kelas without him around. errkk. selalu je he is away. tapi x tahu la, cuti kali ni berat hati sangat sangat dan sangat nak berpisah dengan dia. (yaa! it just for 2weeks only) tapi tu la psal. rasa macam susah je nak bagi dia balik awal. maybe sebab its unfair dia balik kpg awal and im here! going to lecture like pfftt.. seriously, im out of mood dah. malascism. 


masa masa lapang harus di isi dengan kerja yang berfaedah kan? so, have a look at those pictures of me..

look at my wallpaper. imissyou ok!

ok. muka mintak seppak lagi..

iloveyouuu

Chaiyok cintaa...

ngerepak..

Assalamualaikum and a very good day..
our entry for today is 'cakap tak serupa bikin'. i am sure u all tahu what does it means right?
yes. i think everyone has experienced this kan? mingle around with this kind of people.. u know, it hurts ok! tikam dalam punyaa.. in fact, me myself ade je closed with this kind of pffttt people. cheehh! sumpah sakit hati.
ok let me give this situation as an example:

kat dalam bas yg sesak and awak together with your friends bnasib baik ade tmpat duduk. then, after awhile, entered an old woman. then one of your friend cakap mcm ni kat u. "awak, bgn jap. bgi makcik tu duduk. kesian dia" of course after u heard someone said something like that towards you, automatically u pun bgn and bgi seat tu kat makcik tu kan? the issue here is, kenapa awak yg kena bgn? tapi bukan kawan awak yang suruh awak bgn tadi? ohh WHY?? awak x rasa pelik ke buat mcm tu kat kwn awak sendiri? as if awak nak tunjuk diri awak tu baik sangat, concern la kunun kat org tua ni. tp suruh org lain bgn? Ya Allah, masa tu Allah je tahu macam mana rasa sakit hati saya kat awak. sumpah! aritu dosa saya sebab i cursed u like hell u know!! sorry.. i think if u are in my shoes, u might did the same thing.. or even worst.

second thing is i am a person who is not feel comfort sharing my things or stuff with others. i think now is better because i know "x boleh kedekut. org tgh susah, nak pinjam." and also "semua tu hak Allah. kita just pinjam je"
ok sentap disitu! but hey, personally i think that i ada hak kot nak kedekut dgn barang i sendiri. try to put yourself in my shoes. at the same time, almost everyday orang pinjam barang you. kalau lepas terus cuci x pe la jugak. ni tak. lepas pakai kena peram 2 3 hari pastu baru cuci. then, i nak pakai apa lagi? i okey je if orang nak pinjam apa2 barang pun kat tapi dgn a few syarat:

1. ask my permission first. jangan pakai dulu pastu baru pakai. oh man! TU KAN MANNER? KENA LA TAHU KAN?

2. dah dpt permission tu, kena la jaga elok2 barang org. awk tu peminjam. mana la tahu owner tu nak pakai bnda tu ke tp brg tu x cuci lagi pdhal dah guna seminggu yang lalu.. haa, mana boleh macam tu. kata anak dara, x sesuai nak malas2 cuci barang2 sendiri. nak keluar pandai pulak nak cantik2 wangi2. TAPI?? sendiri tahu la kan..

3. x semua benda kita boleh pinjam and agak2 la nak pinjam barang orang tu. kalau betul2 terdesak, baru la pinjam or else jgn jadi kan meminjam barang orang tu one of your habit. kadang2 orang yang kena pinjam ni akan rasa pelik. i mean, rasa x selesa bcoz ada je orang nak pinjam barang dia. adoi. i really x fhm la. 

setakat ni, itu je kot. nnti pape saya add lagi ye.
here we come to the main issue which is cakap x serupa bikin.
ohmygosshh! if you guys rapat dgn org mcm ni, sumpah memang seminggu sakit hati. cakap bukan main lagi. mengalah kan najib. tp lepas tu dia sendiri buat benda yang dia tegur kat orang lain tu. tak ka bodoh orang macam tu? sudah terang lagi bersuluh.. aiee.. geli la nak rapat dgn org mcm ni. sebab mulut dia bau longkang. geli geli.. busuk kot!
so, effa please.. berhati when u are talking or point out your opinion. takut nnti it reflect to yourself. bulan puasa ni kan. sama sama la kita perbaiki diri. onggeh!

assalamualaikum and e very good day everyone.
this week is not good days for me because im just too stressed with all the assignments and EVERYTHING have to be done and submit before hari raya. here, i am explode with tears for no reason. Alhamdulillah, today one assignment done which is my forum and dont wanna comment anything about it. past is past.. n its pffttttt! arghhh.. bongok punya pronunciation..
aiee i dont which one is my priority because everything need to be submit on the day and same week. see, when we are in this situation, who else we seeking for? of course our parent kan? and that what i did. i call mama and she said this to me..
"effa, x yah la nak stress. kne la bijak buat keje. mse yang ade, cbe isi dgn bnde bfaedah. effa kre bruntung sngt dpt msuk maktab.trus smbung degree. tgk mama ni, stkat sijil je. klau bole mmg nak sngt nak smbung blaja tp xpe la. biar la anak2 blaja tggi2. mama stkat sijil pun xpe. jgn asyik main2 je kat sne. shopping x tntu psal (ok. yg ni sentap!) blaja dulu, nnti dah keje nak shopping hari2 pun mama x ksah dah. effa kne kuat tau. effa sorang je lagi harapan mama n ayah. be strong syg."


then my tears fall. sumpah rindu kat mama. cmne la mama bole jadi sekuat ni kan? and why cant i be like her? i love her so much and i have to be as strong as her, right? 

Assalamualaikum and hye everyone!

here i am, sharing my story of life with u guys. yes, AGAIN! :)

today, he is coming home. coming home! and i miss him so much. adoi.. rindu rindu rindu.. 

budak, kenapa buat saya rindu macam ni?? it hurts u know. yea, i know you are not doing this on purpose and you have solid reason for this. i know i know! saje je nak mnje mnje. haha! (sumpah gedik!)

this month is a busy month for me as i have 3 assignments to be done and submit before the Hari Raya Aidilfitri. to make things worst is, one of my assignment which is Pengantar Pendidikan yang aku x tahu ape ntah, we suppose to write an essay of 10 pages at least! oh hell~ can u imagine how suffer i am now? sumpah. it is difficult for me to write an essay in bm ok. bukan nak cakap besar or whatsoever, tapi it is weird. i cant explain how i feel. tp itulaaa.. i dont know how to arrange my point, my sentences. nak cakap apa je sampai 10 pages?? gila nak? this weekend i work on it by googling it and try come out with my own ideas and then failed! its worthless! sedih la macam. yang tu baru 1 assignment tauuuu... x masok agama lagi, math la, core subjek lagi. matainaaa...

" Ya Allah, kau permudahkanlah segala urusanku. amin".

rugi..

assalammualaikum and hello world!

hari ni dah masuk puasa ke 2 dah. and here i am, duduk depan laptop while my housmates were going to mosque and perform their terawih! rugi rugi rugi. bukan selalu nak terawih sama sama dgn housemate kan? eii.. sedih gler tau.. kemanisan yang semanis kurma tu x bole nak rasa (bajetss) but it is true.. sumpah sedih. duduk rumah pun x buat pape.. ada keje but still x buat keje. ceittt.. u are wasting your time budak! i miss my parent, my brothers, my sister, both of my nephew... i miss them a lot! but i know, i am here is simply because of them! fight for myself and also them. boy, without you by my side i couldnt i magine how am i going to survive and continue my journey. i might fail to be as strong as now. the only thing you should know is, everything that u did give me a lesson on how life in real. thank you for everything! even u tengking2 I, I tahu u never meant it kan? I tahu setiap org ada tahap sabar masing2 so i memang x bole nak over manja manja dgn u like i used to do with my family. since we are together, i am trying so hard to change myself which i think i should change. and i hope, do consider my situation. it is not easy to change right? u too! if i think i am not BERKENAN dgn perangai u, i tegur depan2 sampai u tarik muka x nak cakap dengan i. hahahaa! adoi. hey, u never be replace :)

I love youuu...

Assalamualaikum and salam Ramadhan :)
first things first, esok 1st day puasa! and damnly sad, its my 1st day period also. ceitt.. dah semangat dah nak terawih, puasa dgn housemate, berbuka sama2. 1st day of puasa is the most sweet moment compare to the other days in Ramadhan. sebab? sebab on the 1st day, semua orang semangat je lebih. the day after dah xde lagi dah semangat tu..
oh yess! ingatkan before puasa nak nyanyi puas puas bagai nak rak. tetapi.. tett tett~
saya x kisah kalau kita x jadi pergi karaoke or nyanyi apa benda ntah. saya just nak jumpa awak je. even saya hanya jumpa awak 5 minit semata mata nak bagi pendrive, saya sanggup tau. sebab? sebab everytime saya dengan awak saya rasa saya dengan keluarga saya. saya rasa keluarga saya dekat je dengan saya. dont know whyyy! everytime saya dekat dengan awak, saya rasa safe sebab saya yakin awak boleh jaga saya even though bukan senang nak jaga budak degil macam saya. tapi, awak x pernah nak merungut. sebab tu saya yakin dengan awak. saya tahu awak boleh jaga saya sama macam parents saya jaga saya. saya tahu! and saya tahu, awak x mungkin rasa apa yang saya rasa terhadap awak. bagi awak hubungan kita x serious, but for me yes! hubungan kita sangat serious sampai saya simpan impian nak hidup dengan awak sorang je nanti. nak ada family dengan awak. saya sayang hubungan kita. saya minta maaf if sepanjang kita bersama ni, saya selalu sakitkan hati awak. saya selalu marah x tentu pasal dengan awak. saya minta maaf! mungkin sekarang ni awak dah mula x tahan dengan perangai saya kot. awak dah malas nak melayan karenah saya. saya minta maaf! 


                                                                                                                 lots of love,
                                                                                                                           effa