rugi..

assalammualaikum and hello world!

hari ni dah masuk puasa ke 2 dah. and here i am, duduk depan laptop while my housmates were going to mosque and perform their terawih! rugi rugi rugi. bukan selalu nak terawih sama sama dgn housemate kan? eii.. sedih gler tau.. kemanisan yang semanis kurma tu x bole nak rasa (bajetss) but it is true.. sumpah sedih. duduk rumah pun x buat pape.. ada keje but still x buat keje. ceittt.. u are wasting your time budak! i miss my parent, my brothers, my sister, both of my nephew... i miss them a lot! but i know, i am here is simply because of them! fight for myself and also them. boy, without you by my side i couldnt i magine how am i going to survive and continue my journey. i might fail to be as strong as now. the only thing you should know is, everything that u did give me a lesson on how life in real. thank you for everything! even u tengking2 I, I tahu u never meant it kan? I tahu setiap org ada tahap sabar masing2 so i memang x bole nak over manja manja dgn u like i used to do with my family. since we are together, i am trying so hard to change myself which i think i should change. and i hope, do consider my situation. it is not easy to change right? u too! if i think i am not BERKENAN dgn perangai u, i tegur depan2 sampai u tarik muka x nak cakap dengan i. hahahaa! adoi. hey, u never be replace :)

I love youuu...

Assalamualaikum and salam Ramadhan :)
first things first, esok 1st day puasa! and damnly sad, its my 1st day period also. ceitt.. dah semangat dah nak terawih, puasa dgn housemate, berbuka sama2. 1st day of puasa is the most sweet moment compare to the other days in Ramadhan. sebab? sebab on the 1st day, semua orang semangat je lebih. the day after dah xde lagi dah semangat tu..
oh yess! ingatkan before puasa nak nyanyi puas puas bagai nak rak. tetapi.. tett tett~
saya x kisah kalau kita x jadi pergi karaoke or nyanyi apa benda ntah. saya just nak jumpa awak je. even saya hanya jumpa awak 5 minit semata mata nak bagi pendrive, saya sanggup tau. sebab? sebab everytime saya dengan awak saya rasa saya dengan keluarga saya. saya rasa keluarga saya dekat je dengan saya. dont know whyyy! everytime saya dekat dengan awak, saya rasa safe sebab saya yakin awak boleh jaga saya even though bukan senang nak jaga budak degil macam saya. tapi, awak x pernah nak merungut. sebab tu saya yakin dengan awak. saya tahu awak boleh jaga saya sama macam parents saya jaga saya. saya tahu! and saya tahu, awak x mungkin rasa apa yang saya rasa terhadap awak. bagi awak hubungan kita x serious, but for me yes! hubungan kita sangat serious sampai saya simpan impian nak hidup dengan awak sorang je nanti. nak ada family dengan awak. saya sayang hubungan kita. saya minta maaf if sepanjang kita bersama ni, saya selalu sakitkan hati awak. saya selalu marah x tentu pasal dengan awak. saya minta maaf! mungkin sekarang ni awak dah mula x tahan dengan perangai saya kot. awak dah malas nak melayan karenah saya. saya minta maaf! 


                                                                                                                 lots of love,
                                                                                                                           effa

harimau malayaa

Assalamualaikum and  a very good day world.
im not in a good mood now because i lost the chance to enjoy the football match at bukit jalil with my beloved one. yes yes! im not football fan but since it is "should" be my first time watching football alive, so i think maybe through that experience i will more into this football thingy. well hell! just because of gerko, i cant join it! darn i t! darn it! darn it! im so jealous. sumpah. sakit hati.. i wanna experience screaming and yelling lika a crazy cutie person together with him watch the match! i wan it! really do.. rasa macam x boleh nak terima kenyataan je. sumpah frust! waa, there will be no more chance for me. aumm auumm.. ceiit! at this time being, i wont log in my fb account coz im sure everyone is busy posting and updating their status and talking about this. shhooooooottttt~ 

Assalamualaikum..
 Sabda Rasulullah SAW bermaksud: Tidak masuk syurga orang yang suka menyebarkan fitnah. (Hadis riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim)


Wujud lagi kan manusia yang menyebar fitnah tak berasas zaman moden sekarang ni. sangat narrow-minded. apa la point nak buat fitnah and sebarkan cerita yang x betul pasal orang lain? please, tell me what will u got? what are you hunting for by doing that? what was wrong with you? what we have done wrong to you? tell me please. and i am 100% sure that all what you one is only SATISFACTION. Ya Allah, sampai macam tu sekali buat org kan? awak, sedar laa. He is just an old man. all what he had done is just based on the system. it is a system which everyone is practicing it. kenapa sanggup buat orang yang lagi tua macam tu? just nak menutup kesalahan awak selama ni and awak sanggup jatuhkan maruah org lain? awak x ingat Allah ke? awak tahukan dosa memfitnah lagi teruk dari membunuh orang. Dan fitnah itu lebih besar bahayanya daripada pembunuhannya. (Surah al-Baqarah, ayat 191)
sangat sedih bila tahu cerita ni blaku dalam family kita sendiri kan? plus, all of the children is not by their side. believe me, mum and dad. though we are far by a distance with you but we are always close with you in our heart. sabar ye mama and ayah! Semua ni dugaan. Allah bagi dugaan dalam keluarga sebab Allah sayang kita sekeluarga. mesti ada hikmah disebalik semua ni kan? xkan ada anak yang sanggup tengok maruah ayahnya dipermainkan. it is about dignity people. Dugaan kan hidup ni? problems come and gone.. and through problems we learn what life is. we really have to survive for our right and dignity. x semua masalah kita boleh share dgn org. but for me, i have to tell people. i am not strong to face it alone. to a certain problems, i might need your ear to just listen my words, and most of the time i do need support and courage from you dear. i am desperately need it! i know, you have your own commitment, your own work, your own life. i am just a quarter of your life. i know. i know. life is complicated till sometimes we fail to manage and control it. I know, my dad is a cool man. I know he can swallows all this with a strong heart :) i know my dad well. he is a cool man.


daddy, i just want you to know that. i will always support you no matter what happen. there must be a reason for all this. be strong dad. InsyaAllah. Allah akan tolong orang yang benar. i love you dad. i really love you.




                                              

DIA AKU DAN KAMU

Jangan ada tidak percaya
Jangan bilang kebencianmu
Hati ini selalu mengharapkan
Kau dan aku bisa bahagia

Air mata disisi ini
Saat kamu jauh disana
Jangan ada selingkuh dusta
Kau dan aku harus setia

Engkau dan aku tidak mahu
Orang ketiga menghancurkan
Karena cinta telah lama disatukan

Kita disini hanya ada
Satu impian paling indah
Karena cinta dan asmara
Kan bertahan

Aku tak bisa menduga hatimu
Andainya bisa ku peluk bayangmu
Diantara kita tidak akan dapat mengganggu

Kita disini hanya ada
Satu impian paling indah
Karena cinta dan asmara
Kan bertahan

Engkau dan aku (engkau dan aku)
Tidak mahu (tidak mahu)
Orang ketiga menghancurkan (menghancurkan)
Karena cinta telah lama disatukan

everytime dengar lagu mesti rasa sakit hati + takut + klmj. tapi lagu ni jugak selalu ingat kan aku untuk sentiasa setia, selagi boleh. sebab dalam perhubungan yang tulus dan ikhlas, orang ketiga patut pergi. macam mana dia masuk and interrupt hubungan orang, macam tu jugak la dia patut pergi. well this is just my personal opinion. kalau korang ada pandangan lain, then it is up to you. just try to put yourself in their shoes. korang x rasa sedih ke kena tipu dengan orang yang korang sayang? karma does exists my dear. what goes around come back around. entry ini x bermaksud kat sapa2 pun. just nak bagi peringatan kat diri aku sendiri. because i know myself well. 
hee~ ok bye!

Budak baru belajar :)

Assalamualaikum and hello world!
Alhamdulillah, syukur dipanjat ke hadrat Allah s.w.t because from day to day, i am now more comfort wearing a scarf (tudung). even though i am not wearing it in a proper way, the way a muslimah should wear it, but i think this is one of my victory that i manage to achieve. well yahh, now there are so many ways on how we wear a scarf and varieties types of scarf nowadays. InsyaAllah, futher in future i will take this thing more serious, wearing a scarf is not only because of other person OR trend BUT it is because of Allah, me myself and my future husband (INSYAALLAH) so, here are photos of me wearing a scarf :)

bajets!

excited!

mcm pregnant je kan?

1st time try belit2 shawl

lengan pendek, malaatoopp!

trying so hard -.-

cuti kat swak, nak g dinner i guess

2nd sem :) 

beg tu bday present from my besties

im the model of vaseline

woott woott! tudung baru..

berani mati pakai macam ni

yang ni lagi la :p

focus pada tudung. bukan badan baju seluar or whatever

my first cotton shawl

airport mehh..

my third tudung sarung yg ada onning :p

i love my phone

crunchy!!

this is the latest style (me)

baik!

ok. i perasan comel

ye. x cantik

:)

shatap readers

sengalness

ai aii capten

senyum senget

yaa im senget (kinda)

merah + coklat

muka buullaaat

pfftttt

tudung paling senang skali dpakai

tehee

haiqal way of smiles :)

Jangan Kamu Marah!

Hadith :

Daripada Abu Hurairah r.a bahawa seorang lelaki telah berkata kepada nabi SAW yang maksudnya:” Berwasiatlah kepada ku.” Sabda Rasulullah SAW: “Jangan kamu marah.” Maka lelaki itu mengulangi kata-katanya berulang kali. Sabda Rasulullah SAW:” Jangan kamu marah..”   (al-Bukhari) Huraian Hasan al-Basri pernah berkata: Empat perkara jika sesiapa memilikinya maka Allah memeliharanya daripada syaitan dan mengharamkan ke atasnya api neraka: (iaitu) Sesiapa yang mampu mengawal dirinya ketika dalam keghairahan, ketakutan, syahwat dan kemarahan.” Sesungguhnya kemarahan akan mengumpulkan segala keburukan. Reaksi seorang yang sedang marah dapat dilihat pada wajah dan anggota badannya seperti warna mukanya bertukar merah, urat-urat lehernya menegang, tubuh badan seakan-akan menggigil kerana geram, suara menjadi nyaring manakala lidah mula mengeluarkan perkataan yang buruk sama ada mengutuk atau mengeji. Ada kemungkinan patah-patah perkataan itu berupa penghinaan atau yang seumpama dengannya yang haram diucapkan termasuklah menuduh orang lain sebagai kafir dan lain-lain. Selain itu, seseorang itu juga akan melakukan perbuatan yang di luar kawalannya sendiri seperti memukul, menumbuk, menampar dan sebagainya. Semua ini berkemungkinan akan mendorong kepada perbuatan yang menyakitkan orang lain yang akhirnya mewujudkan permusuhan dan kebencian di antara satu sama lain. Justeru walaupun sifat marah adalah sifat semula jadi manusia namun sebagai seorang Muslim kita hendaklah berusaha untuk menjauhkan diri daripada segala sebab yang menyebabkan kemarahan.

'i got this from iluvislam, for sure. the reason why im searching for this matter is simply because i think i am now in emotional climate. pfftt! i know it sounds sowhatever, but hey! sukahatikameklaahh :p
well hell, it is raging hormone among the teenagers ok. it is normal if we as a teenagers have this conflict within ourselves or others as well  (this is just my opinion darl) but, there are limits to that matter because during this period of time, we learn what is life and how to live the life, right? so, if you were about to get tempered or conflicts within yourselves, cepat-cepat cari cara untuk ubat balik hatimu tu. sebab semakin kita marah, makin suka syaitan nak dekat dekat and hasut hasut diri kita. so, try to console yourselves. (for me as well) sebab tu la everytime kalau kita marah, kita mudah sangat nak mencaci mengutuk menyumpah menumbuk menendang membaling dan segala jenis 'mem' or 'meng' laah.  for me myself, when i was about to lose temper, i'll cry. because i think it is better rather than i curse people yang sah sah bole dapat dosa percuma kan? (ermm, kkadang tu mnyumpah jugak. kalau dah malaaampau sngt kan? sowhat? sound la sikit)  well, that is what im doing. different people comes with different style. so, do search your own style on how to overcome anger. Goodluck! ^.^ this is how u will look alike if u cant manage your anger. scary is it? All that u have to do is, be cool and smile in whatever situation :)