today is 1st February and yaa hello Feb's! nothing much to say, just BRING IT ON FEB! ^__^
sangat berharap February takkan sama dengan January. In Jan, ive wasted too much tears so pleaseeeeee Feb. dont let my tears fall too much. Membazir amalan syaitoonnnnn. kawan penah tanya, macam mana kau boleh tahan dgn dia sampai sekarang ea? well, a really good question to ponder. personally, i sendiri taktahu sebab sebab munasabah kenapa i keep holding the relationship till now. this question always appear in mind, but also i ended by ignoring it. "biarlah, malas nak fikir" "i just go with the flow" i end up myself by being positif-tak-bertempat. its true, relationship is the most complicated bonding among the others. if in friendship, yes mmg akan ada surut dan naik nya, begaduh manja all the time, butthurt sometime, tapi kita tak pernah pun terfikir nak give up utk bkawan balik dgn kawan kita tu. same goes to family bonding, well air dicincang tak akan putus kan? tapi kenapa dalam perhubungan diantara lelaki dan perempuan, selalu je ada misunderstanding, arguing on irrelevant topic pastu bgaduh sampai dua tiga hari? kenapa? kalau effa yang dulu ni, takde nye bertahan sampai 2tahun. dah sakit hati sangat, make a move terus. maybe at that time, ego tinggi lagi, kot. tapi kenapa effa yang sekarang ni tak kuat macam dulu ea? kenapa susah sangat nak move on and stay single. as if, kalau dia tak ade, im going to die asap. goshh, what a bullshit mind i have. :'(
at some point, i give up. i really do, yet i didnt move up. i am still holding on this relationship. i pray to Allah day and night, im seeking for the answer, i know there is a reason behind this. Sabar effa, stay strong and keep faith to Allah. Allah hears me all the time, yahh all the Muslims too.
keep smiling, im good at it ^_^
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