Praise to Allah ^.^

Assalammualaikum sayangs!

Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah Alhamdulillah ya Allah :)

haa i guess everyone knows what picture is that right? Itulah Kaabah. Kaabah terletak kat mana? terletak di Tanah Suci Mekah. Alhamdulillah, dalam keadaan yang lemah menahan sakit, i received a good news from mama. it is CONFIRMED! yep. our status are confirm. If Allah panjangkan usia dan permudahkan segala urusan, 30 May until 10 June, Effa mama ayah angah n maksu akan berangkat pergi ke Mekah untuk menunaikan umrah. walaupun hanya pergi sana untuk menunaikan umrah, but deep inside i am thankful to Allah sebab at this age, He give me an opportunity to have a visit at His place. Thank you Allah. Thank you.
bukanlah diri ni nak menunjuk-nunjuk. TAK! hanyalah sekadar ingin berkongsi perasaan yang becampur baur ni. siapa yang x happy dapat peluang pergi ke tanah suci? tipu cakap effa x happy. TAPI, of course perasaan suka gembira tu becampur dengan perasaan sayu sedih takut. sebab apa? sebab effa hanyalah insan biasa yang banyak buat dosa. i am a weak person.

during last school holiday in March, my mum memang dah tanya and ajak pergi sekali at the end of this year. but during that time, i dont feel like i wanna go. i feel like i am not ready yet. i am just 20. i am afraid if i were given a punishment from Allah for all my sins there. in short, i am not ready yet. but then, after that day i used to ask myself. whats wrong if i go? whats the problem. memang la effa masih terlalu muda dan perasaan x ready tu ada lagi dalam diri, tapi kenapa tidak aku pergi je? orang cakap, lagi senang nak dapat hidayah Allah once we were there. i told my friend too and asked their opinion about this. they are so positive, they give me strength and motivated me to go. tapi at that time rasa macam dah terlambat je nak bagitahu kat mama, so i keep it to myself.

then, yesterday i called my mum and she asked me for the second time whether i would like to go or not. immediately i respond, 'YES MUMMY YES! I WANNA GO!'  Ya Allah. at that time, hanya Allah saje yang tahu perasaan effa macam mana. eventhough belum hantar nama and belum confirm lagi pergi, tapi rasa happy sangat! ALHAMDULILLAH :)

sekarang, mama dah bagi kerja yang nak kena buat by myself.
1. buat injection kat klinik swasta (this injection is for those yg nak pergi haji)
2. buat visa antarabangsa
3. ambik gambar pasport yang belakang dia hitam
4 then after all, fax semua benda ni kat mama

tengok, banyak kerja nak kena buat kan? tapi takpe. effa rasa semua benda yang effa buat kerana ALLAH TAALA, mesti Allah akan bagi hadiah baik punya in future.

so, here i need everyone's support and courageousness so that i can improve myself from time to time. again, bukanlah diri ni nak menunjuk nunjuk. NOPE. tidak sama sekali tapi hanyalah ingin berkongsi perasaan yang gumbira suka ria di hari hari rayaaaa :D

salam sayang sayangs! muah muahh :)