whats wrong with me??

believe me, in a situation of third parties in a relationship, the person who is being cheated is much much hurts than the third one. this is simply because all of her trustworthy has gone in one finger click! only! few years built up love and trustworthy, then it ruin because of YOU the third party. please place yourself in my shoe! errkk.. i mean, the first one's shoe. awak mungkin rasa awak just berkawan dengan dia like others did too, tapi i can smell like a rat. tanpa angin pokok xkan bgoyang kan? saya bukan dengar cerita dari orang lain, tapi saya perasan sendiri semua yang berlaku antara awak dengan dia. it happens twice and it is pretty enough hurting me. wanna know what puzzled my mind? here, i give u my list!

1-kenapa awak perlu rasa takut yang saya akan jeles kalau awak berkawan dengan dia? apa special sangat hubungan awak sampai takut saya akan jeles and kitorang akan gaduh pasal awak??

2- awak ni macam polis kan? cepat dan pantas. how did you knew about him? losing in his game? macam mana ni? budak laki tu cakap, he didnt texted u pun. but howdo you know about it? i just wondering.

3- yea, its true.. i should be friend dgn semua kawan boyfriend saya. kawan dia, kawan saya jugak kan? but wait! kalau awak dah tahu saya jeles pasal hubungan korang, why dont u take some action by adding me in fb then try be my friend. why cant u think about all of these like i used to? seriously, i have been thinking adding u as my friend in fb, but at that time being i thought let us see. sebab at that time i memang dah ada rasa syak kat korang but i kept my mouth shut. few months later, SEE! u created these.. all these. awak x make friend dgn saya pun, tapi takut saya jeles dengan hubungan korang. macam mana tu? 

kalau betul awak perempuan yang baik, awak akan faham apa yang saya rasa. ini kali pertama saya percaya kat orang laki dan hubungan kali ni lebih serious dari yang sebelum ni. so, saya harap sangat2 with all these misunderstanding it wont break my trust into pieces. dulu awak boleh la nak bergurau manja dengan dia, tapi sekarang dia dah ada saya. awak patut faham situasi dia sekarang ni macam mana. dah ada girfriend. dah ada hati yang nak kena jaga. 


*it is true 'kalau ada jodoh x kemana". saya rasa saya dah jumpa jodoh saya. and it is now my responsibility to handle my relationship and make it real or not. sorry for all misunderstanding.